Nothing Better- The Postal Service

So this past week was crazy...

Last Saturday I went to Edgefest to see Taking Back Sunday. It was killer, I went with Tania and Kacie and shortly after we got there we found out TBS was doing a signing! So I got to meet them for the second time! (Fazzi and Mark for the first time) but I got to meet Adam again! I told him how much I loved his music and he said "Aw, you're makin me blush" then I asked if I wait around if I could get a pic and he said he couldnt make any promises but he would try. As they were leaving he remembered me! and happily took a pic with me... also said something along the lines of "come on I don't bite, not hard anyways" that pretty much made my week. TBS did a great set too, the crowd was REALLY rough though.... KORN was headlining so go figure.

This week was finals. I think I passed. Thats all I'm gonna say about that. I just got back into Houston today.... it really sucks. I think this whole divorce thing is starting to become real to my mom now... she cried in front of me today... I havent seen her cry since I was about 4 years old and I can't even remember why she was crying then... it really sucks, I wish my dad wasn't so selfish and arrogant. My heart feels heavy again like it did when they broke the news to me... I don't know how I'll be able to stay happy while living here. My dad was in my room and now that I'm back he's trying to make my mom sleep somewhere other than her room since he will have to go on the couch now. Fuck that my dad got himself into this so he can't choose where he wants to sleep. This whole thing is overwhelmingly sad.

On a positive note, me and Hilary are going to California this summer. I booked the car the other day so its final. awesome awesome. anything to get out of this place.


thats about it.... oh and Blink 182 announced their tour so I'm super stoked about that!

Stay Together For the Kids- Blink182

what a weekend.

Saturday my mom called me, she wanted me to come home so I went, thought it would be fun. It wasn't fun at all... they wanted me to come home to tell me they were splitting up... 26 years of marriage down the drain. I've been pretty bummed since I found out... I don't know if I have ever been this sad before. maybe I have but can't remember... as soon as they told me I was overwhelmed, couldn't take it so I left. My car was blocked in so I just walked to Blake's house.
It really sucks though and I don't know what its going to be like when I move home. I am scared. To make it worse my mom is quitting her job. How can she support herself without a job?? My chest feels like its going to explode. I went to the beach last night. It helped calm me down. I went and sat in the lifeguard stand thing. then Tina called me and we talked for awhile... she really helped me a lot. I feel better after talking to her but I am still sad as fuck. I dont know what is going to happen. I have been listening to music constantly since... I'm trying to not think about it but I cant help but to think about it unless I'm with friends... God, I don't know what I would do without all of my friends...

life
sucks
hardcore




Anyways, another thing that happened is my aunt with cancer has to get chemo.... I've heard that it isn't easy.... good news is her cancer isn't spreading


thats about all that has happened.

oh yeah and I am going to see taking back sunday this saturday. thats the only good thing going for me right now..