Friday, April 9, 2010
Doing the Unstuck- The Cure
haven't posted here in awhile... looking back at my old posts was interesting. I was pretty emo. and I continued to get even more emo until this semester. Lots of shit went down, deaths, divorces and dead beats. But I'm over it, moving forward in my life getting it together. Life threw me a big curve ball. Lots of changes are happening. I'm probably moving to Dallas again to go back to UNT. Houston for me is just full of stress and distractions, as much as I HATE leaving here and leaving all of the good parts of houston - friends and some of my family and such - I know I need to do this for myself. I really need to buckle down and focus on school. Sure I've got friends in Dallas but not nearly as many and they aren't as close as the ones here so it will be less distracting. It's just going to be me in my one bedroom apt with my guitars and future electric drumset and my mac. thats all I need hehe. Anyway, thats what is going on. I'm out.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
In My Life- The Beatles
Today, this whole week really has sucked. but today we had to put maggie (my dog) to sleep because she had cancer in her spleen :( it was heartbreaking but I think ive gotten a little bit better about it all. I will write more later.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Everything Must Go- Taking Back Sunday
Quite a bit has been going on lately...
I've been keeping pretty busy, and avoiding home. I try not to think about everything that's going on because it only makes me sad. Everything seems to be falling apart but maybe it will get better. I was at my grandmas the other day and I told her that my dad said to talk to her or my mom to pay for an orthodontist visit and she said something that pretty much meant that my dad is kinda abandoning me, which I don't think is completely the case but of course my grandma is going to be on my moms side because its her daughter that my dads hurting. The new Taking Back Sunday CD came out today... my favorite song on it is Everything Must Go.... part of it reminds me of my dad a lot,
"You quote the Good Book,
When it's convenient
But you don't have the sense
No you don't have the sense
To tie your tangled tongue
Instead you're slashing through the mud"
the "Good Book" refers to the Bible...
I need sleep. Gotta wake up early for the blink 182 presale.... god i hope I get pit. that would make my day. not likely though.
I've been keeping pretty busy, and avoiding home. I try not to think about everything that's going on because it only makes me sad. Everything seems to be falling apart but maybe it will get better. I was at my grandmas the other day and I told her that my dad said to talk to her or my mom to pay for an orthodontist visit and she said something that pretty much meant that my dad is kinda abandoning me, which I don't think is completely the case but of course my grandma is going to be on my moms side because its her daughter that my dads hurting. The new Taking Back Sunday CD came out today... my favorite song on it is Everything Must Go.... part of it reminds me of my dad a lot,
"You quote the Good Book,
When it's convenient
But you don't have the sense
No you don't have the sense
To tie your tangled tongue
Instead you're slashing through the mud"
the "Good Book" refers to the Bible...
I need sleep. Gotta wake up early for the blink 182 presale.... god i hope I get pit. that would make my day. not likely though.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Nothing Better- The Postal Service
So this past week was crazy...
Last Saturday I went to Edgefest to see Taking Back Sunday. It was killer, I went with Tania and Kacie and shortly after we got there we found out TBS was doing a signing! So I got to meet them for the second time! (Fazzi and Mark for the first time) but I got to meet Adam again! I told him how much I loved his music and he said "Aw, you're makin me blush" then I asked if I wait around if I could get a pic and he said he couldnt make any promises but he would try. As they were leaving he remembered me! and happily took a pic with me... also said something along the lines of "come on I don't bite, not hard anyways" that pretty much made my week. TBS did a great set too, the crowd was REALLY rough though.... KORN was headlining so go figure.
This week was finals. I think I passed. Thats all I'm gonna say about that. I just got back into Houston today.... it really sucks. I think this whole divorce thing is starting to become real to my mom now... she cried in front of me today... I havent seen her cry since I was about 4 years old and I can't even remember why she was crying then... it really sucks, I wish my dad wasn't so selfish and arrogant. My heart feels heavy again like it did when they broke the news to me... I don't know how I'll be able to stay happy while living here. My dad was in my room and now that I'm back he's trying to make my mom sleep somewhere other than her room since he will have to go on the couch now. Fuck that my dad got himself into this so he can't choose where he wants to sleep. This whole thing is overwhelmingly sad.
On a positive note, me and Hilary are going to California this summer. I booked the car the other day so its final. awesome awesome. anything to get out of this place.
thats about it.... oh and Blink 182 announced their tour so I'm super stoked about that!
Last Saturday I went to Edgefest to see Taking Back Sunday. It was killer, I went with Tania and Kacie and shortly after we got there we found out TBS was doing a signing! So I got to meet them for the second time! (Fazzi and Mark for the first time) but I got to meet Adam again! I told him how much I loved his music and he said "Aw, you're makin me blush" then I asked if I wait around if I could get a pic and he said he couldnt make any promises but he would try. As they were leaving he remembered me! and happily took a pic with me... also said something along the lines of "come on I don't bite, not hard anyways" that pretty much made my week. TBS did a great set too, the crowd was REALLY rough though.... KORN was headlining so go figure.
This week was finals. I think I passed. Thats all I'm gonna say about that. I just got back into Houston today.... it really sucks. I think this whole divorce thing is starting to become real to my mom now... she cried in front of me today... I havent seen her cry since I was about 4 years old and I can't even remember why she was crying then... it really sucks, I wish my dad wasn't so selfish and arrogant. My heart feels heavy again like it did when they broke the news to me... I don't know how I'll be able to stay happy while living here. My dad was in my room and now that I'm back he's trying to make my mom sleep somewhere other than her room since he will have to go on the couch now. Fuck that my dad got himself into this so he can't choose where he wants to sleep. This whole thing is overwhelmingly sad.
On a positive note, me and Hilary are going to California this summer. I booked the car the other day so its final. awesome awesome. anything to get out of this place.
thats about it.... oh and Blink 182 announced their tour so I'm super stoked about that!
Monday, May 4, 2009
Stay Together For the Kids- Blink182
what a weekend.
Saturday my mom called me, she wanted me to come home so I went, thought it would be fun. It wasn't fun at all... they wanted me to come home to tell me they were splitting up... 26 years of marriage down the drain. I've been pretty bummed since I found out... I don't know if I have ever been this sad before. maybe I have but can't remember... as soon as they told me I was overwhelmed, couldn't take it so I left. My car was blocked in so I just walked to Blake's house.
It really sucks though and I don't know what its going to be like when I move home. I am scared. To make it worse my mom is quitting her job. How can she support herself without a job?? My chest feels like its going to explode. I went to the beach last night. It helped calm me down. I went and sat in the lifeguard stand thing. then Tina called me and we talked for awhile... she really helped me a lot. I feel better after talking to her but I am still sad as fuck. I dont know what is going to happen. I have been listening to music constantly since... I'm trying to not think about it but I cant help but to think about it unless I'm with friends... God, I don't know what I would do without all of my friends...
life
sucks
hardcore
Anyways, another thing that happened is my aunt with cancer has to get chemo.... I've heard that it isn't easy.... good news is her cancer isn't spreading
thats about all that has happened.
oh yeah and I am going to see taking back sunday this saturday. thats the only good thing going for me right now..
Saturday my mom called me, she wanted me to come home so I went, thought it would be fun. It wasn't fun at all... they wanted me to come home to tell me they were splitting up... 26 years of marriage down the drain. I've been pretty bummed since I found out... I don't know if I have ever been this sad before. maybe I have but can't remember... as soon as they told me I was overwhelmed, couldn't take it so I left. My car was blocked in so I just walked to Blake's house.
It really sucks though and I don't know what its going to be like when I move home. I am scared. To make it worse my mom is quitting her job. How can she support herself without a job?? My chest feels like its going to explode. I went to the beach last night. It helped calm me down. I went and sat in the lifeguard stand thing. then Tina called me and we talked for awhile... she really helped me a lot. I feel better after talking to her but I am still sad as fuck. I dont know what is going to happen. I have been listening to music constantly since... I'm trying to not think about it but I cant help but to think about it unless I'm with friends... God, I don't know what I would do without all of my friends...
life
sucks
hardcore
Anyways, another thing that happened is my aunt with cancer has to get chemo.... I've heard that it isn't easy.... good news is her cancer isn't spreading
thats about all that has happened.
oh yeah and I am going to see taking back sunday this saturday. thats the only good thing going for me right now..
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Red Rabbits- the shins
Haven't updated in awhile.... I think I will start using this more....
I went to vegas a couple of weeks ago and I had one of the best times of my life... met so many cool people who I talked to online but had not met in person.... it sounds weird, meeting people online but it really depends on where you met them... I met these people on chainofflowers.com which is like a cure blog.... its pretty legit.
Just found out my aunt has cancer... not sure what kind it is but the doc said its a really aggressive kind.... so shes getting a catscan tomorrow... hope shes okay.... its gotta be tough to have cancer.... but shes a tough lady so I think she will get through this...
I skateboarded today... havent done that in years. I can still do all of the basic tricks, surprisingly. everytime I skate it makes me start thinking really deep thoughts... sometimes its kind of relaxing. when I skated I stumbled upon a little sparrow, it made me kind of sad because he was dead... it looked as though he had just died too.... from the looks of it, it seemed as though he fell off the bird feeder and broke his neck... sometimes the birds out on the feeder can be assholes to the smaller birds, and i think thats the reason this little sparrow died. I decided he deserved a proper burial so I dug a hole and buried him. and I named him Shecter too cause he deserved a name too...
I went to vegas a couple of weeks ago and I had one of the best times of my life... met so many cool people who I talked to online but had not met in person.... it sounds weird, meeting people online but it really depends on where you met them... I met these people on chainofflowers.com which is like a cure blog.... its pretty legit.
Just found out my aunt has cancer... not sure what kind it is but the doc said its a really aggressive kind.... so shes getting a catscan tomorrow... hope shes okay.... its gotta be tough to have cancer.... but shes a tough lady so I think she will get through this...
I skateboarded today... havent done that in years. I can still do all of the basic tricks, surprisingly. everytime I skate it makes me start thinking really deep thoughts... sometimes its kind of relaxing. when I skated I stumbled upon a little sparrow, it made me kind of sad because he was dead... it looked as though he had just died too.... from the looks of it, it seemed as though he fell off the bird feeder and broke his neck... sometimes the birds out on the feeder can be assholes to the smaller birds, and i think thats the reason this little sparrow died. I decided he deserved a proper burial so I dug a hole and buried him. and I named him Shecter too cause he deserved a name too...
Monday, February 9, 2009
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